Since my last journal was obviously misunderstood by some people.
I would tell you what happened to me, but it is very very personal and outside of DA, and I do not want to bring my problems here. That was why I did not elaborate; let's just say I was swindled out of an important opportunity by someone I trusted. The only reason I posted anything was to let people know that sadly, I do not even know yet if or when I will be able to fulfill my art promises since trying to take care of all that's going on in my life right now will make it hectic; I want more than anything to be around, so I will do my utmost in that respect, but it hurts me that again I am going through a tumbling phase in life outside DA that won't let me do as much as I wanted. I should have taken the time to breathe first, understand what happened and then write a calmer journal like this one, but it was the first time I ever lost something really important to me career-wise and it was a blow too sudden to process.
Now, no one is obligated to read this journal, and I am not writing it for sympathy or to get comments or any sort of thing. I only wanted to inform everyone who expect things of me that I do not know yet when things will calm down enough for me to draw again and be around. Could be today, in a week, in a year... I just don't know yet. This wasn't a `Bwaaah I am leaving DA zomg` as some people seem to have thought, and I'd appreciate not being insulted when I am going through too much already. I do not want wars here, or anywhere, and so flaming comments will be, as ever, ignored and deleted.
I did not want to hurt anyone's feelings, and if that happened by accident I apologize. No one has to comment, no one is obligated to offer any support, this is just to inform everyone of what's happening to me right now and why I might suddenly seem to `vanish`- it won't be because I wanted to. Again, I will try my utmost to keep in touch and support the people who have supported me here, and I will get to everything I promised first chance I get. The people who have been around for me here are never far from my mind, and if I came here to tell my watchers that I am hurting right now it's because I thought at least some of them might care. If I have to apologize for anything right now, it would be that I did not write this journal first, since obviously the other one cast me in a bad light. But it is your choice to stick around or not, and read this or not, and think of me as Lucifer or not. I just wanted to say thank you to the ones who didn't up and snap at me, and understood what I am all about without instantly thinking the very worst they could. It's to those people I write these lines, and hope to make up for that as best I can.
I think that covers just about everything,
-PhantomJustice

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